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Holiday starts, 5th December I am going to Australia for more than 1 month. Unfortunately, I don't know what am I going to do there. I think this holiday is kinda wasting time. I will be very happy about it if god allows me to have sickness before aboard. Everyone thinks that i should appreciate what I am having rite?! I did appreciate. Going to Australia for 1 month++?! I know that's great but I don't hope to stay there for that long period. I want to go to school. I don't want to waste time in Australia rather than study. I want to go to school, although my school is SUCKS!!!

Already more than half year I broke up with him, I though I will forget him. But, I didn't. Btw, he changed a lot. He started to swear in front of me, acting cool, no manners. What's going with him?! Is it because of me?! I have asked this question for many times. I asked him, but he say NO! Then what happen with him?! What happen in these half year?! He changed a lot!!! Changed to a totally different person. Today i viewed his facebook profile. I saw an application, they ask: if could remove something from his own memory, what would he remove? Guess what's the answer?! Is his ex-gf. He asked my best friend a question, how to make his own ex to feel bad and regret to broke up with him. Hey guys, I m his only ex-gf!!! He wants me to regret, wants me to apologise. His wish is granted now, I admit that I still love him. He did that makes me don't know how to face him. I know I shouldn't love him. I force myself. But I can't stop loving him.
He tells me that he needs a girlfriend, he hope that I could help him. As a friend, I should help him. He seems like doesn't appreciate it. He seems like just want to making fun of me, want me to be shame and sad. I tells everyone that I, Emun Lim doesn't love him anymore. I forget all the memories we had. But the truth is, I can't forget the every first time we had. Our first kiss in KBOX, the first time we hug, the first time we watch movie together. Deep inside my heart are all the sweet and sad memorise between he and me. Sorry guys I'm telling a LIE to you all for a long time. My face n hands are now full with tears and I'm now stuck in the deepess and the darkness of my heart. I dare to write this because I know he won't be reading it. If he read this, he will be very happy cause his wish was granted.

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